I called back to the office at Langley, and Amanda answered the phone. She told me that she'd heard I had be confirmed to go to Omaha, Nebraska after my return from Korea, instead of Langley. This information had come three weeks ago but no one at the school passed the message on to me, to allow me to address the problem. Now I was in deep trouble because I was past the time limit to turn it down. Amanda listened to me for half an hour as I tried to think of what to do, and how Miimii would react if she had to move to Nebraska and lose her job. Amanda always listened to me.
I phoned Miimii and she flatly said she would not move to Nebraska with
me, and didn't understand it was not my fault. She yelled at me and asked me why I was telling her this now? I got very, very drunk that night and hung out in Lou's room. The next morning drove 13 hours to Indiana.
My favorite aunt, Henrietta, had cancer and was very sick. I always liked
her because when I'd send a card or a letter, she was the only one who
understood my humor. Not even my mother could do that. I wanted to see her. Feeling more desolate than I had in years, I arrived in Evansville late that night.
Over the next few days I called Langley and tried to work a deal over the phone with my boss
to see if we could pull some strings and get
me back to Langley in 1998 following my Korea tour, and save my marriage. All this time I was dealing with the funeral for my
aunt, and scared to death of bursting into flames for standing near a candle. I didn't know what to say to my cousins who rarely saw me and wanted
to talk. I was a zombie and wandered off alone to think in the cemetery. I had no outlet for my rage--my bicycle had repeated flat tires, then my aluminum fork broke. I called Miimii and told her if staying
in Virginia was so important to her, I'd leave the Air Force to save our
marriage. I'd been in for nearly 13 years, but when I took my marriage vows I said,"'Till death do us part".