Then I ate him...slowly...painfully...squeak...squeak...crunch...crunch...
So I got my motel, went for a 33 kilometer bicycle ride, and slept early. Georgetown looked like something out of a western movie, nestled in a deep valley between two walls of mountains 2000 feet above the town. Very very small, but gorgeous! I should've been a cowboy.
I couldn't sleep that night. I was so nervous and scared after that drive the day before, visions of Toonces the driving cat hurling off the side of the mountain flashing through my head. I munched on a Subway sandwich alone in my room while watching a Dave Matthews on VH1 Storytellers. I knew I was very strong but hadn't climbed well all year, and I knew I had to make the summit at all costs if I had to crawl. Failure was not an option.
I was so lonely. I set up the bicycle, checked and rechecked everything. I'd phoned Ha the day before I left Virginia and told her I'd phone her back after I finished the climb. To make sure I didn't fail, I dug up her wedding ring and wore it so that when I felt like quitting I'd see her ring and remember, I had to phone her after I reached the summit. I tried to call Ha, Cathy (ex-girlfriend), Mommy, and couldn't reach anyone. I did a lot of praying. I apologized about all those terrible things I did with my last girlfriend, promised to visit old people, recycle, be a better person, fart less...
This is what I was facing. And the recurring thought I've had, hundreds of times as I try to fall asleep the night before a big race is,"What have I gotten myself into? Why do I do this to myself? I could have stayed home and been cozy in my bed, not a care in the world. I need to stop doing this".